Tried to make a facebook post but deleted it because it was too emotional. and because every goddamn stupid thing I try to do or write I have to subject to analysis of how this will be interpreted understood am I clear? can you tell why I'm doing this? can you misinterpret this as selfishness because he's always selfish and I can't imagine why everyone didn't notice already that he's an asshole a monster a nightmare no one notices and I keep trying to explain and I keep hearing Shakespeare "she doth protest too much" I'm not protesting too much I am protesting exactly the right amount or rather, I'm protesting as much as I dare knowing the punishment that's coming, knowing that any bravery on my part any autonomy any protection for my children will be severely penalized. this is my life and I want to scream scream scream rail against this mess and nightmare and confusion and no o...